Salam Aidilfitri - Happy Eid - Happy holidays

salam to all my Muslim readers...

i'd like to take this opportunity to wish you all Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri...and i seek forgiveness from the bottom of my heart as sincerely as i possibly am on my probably and possibly rude wirtings, or ramblings or on any other stuff (consciously or not) that might have hurt your feelings etc etc...

To my foreign readers, Eid celebration is a Muslim Holiday that marks the end of Ramadan , the Islamic holy month of fasting. Eid is an Arabic word meaning "festivity", while Fiṭr means "to purify"; and so the holiday symbolizes the purification after completing the fasting month which is after the end of the Islamic month of Ramadan, on the first day of Syawal.

This year for the 1st time we will be celebrating Eid in our hometown - Kelantan. while i was packing it struck me that Ramadan is actually coming to an end and i suddenly feels sad. why you might ask, its because Ramadan is a beautiful month filled with opportunity to 'purify' oneself towards Allah SAW. Ramadan is special because its the only month where everything (reward/pahala) is doubled and the 'arms of forgiveness and blessings' has widen. so as Muslims we should grab the opportunity to repent and seek for forgiveness and have blessings in life...

thinking about it and the fact that Ramadan is ending i feel so so lost? coz God knows that i have sinned...for i may have choose the wrong things in life, indulge more than i should and i may have made regretful mistakes...although for all the wrongs i've made and done i have regretted long since but the fact of the matter is that you don't know if your repent/forgiveness is ultimately forgiven...

the month of Ramadan have given me peace and time to reflect myself and i find myself lacking and incomplete...so to speak...which lead me to have this resolution to self betterment...

1. i want to be a better - the best daughter to my parents
2. i want to be a better - the best daughter in law
3. i want to be my very best as a wife
4. i want to be a more loving and compessionate mother
5. i want to be a better friend and relative
   
6. i want to be a better sister to my siblings
7. and most of all i want to be a better Muslim.

i don't know if i can achieve the above aim but i will try...because its not as easy for we are only human, human that may be tempted with greed, envy, comtemp etc...that will be the obsticle on achieving the above.

speaking of envy and i think most of us would probably feel the same...if i were to compare what i have with other people nothing seem enough, and nothing seem fair...i envy but abah and mama and hubby always tells me to count my blessing and be more greatful on what we actually have rather than what we don't have or can't have...and when ever i feel that way now i will start counting my blessings...because nobody is perfect, nobody has everything, and can have anything in life... NOBODY!.. when i start reflecting i truly am greatful and blessed even with all of the imperfections that i may have and it made me happy and have that inner peace. for that Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah to all the blessings in life...

Ramadan, i shall miss you hope to see you again next year insyaAllah.

Happy Eid-ul Fitri Everybody!